I'm so messed up right now.

That was the first time ever that i was insulted to such an extent. The insults i got made me feel like shit. I felt like a bitch. I felt like i'm not worthy of anyone. Though i know i shouldn't really care because those people who said that to me mean nothing to me and because they don't know me well enough, i still can't erase those insults from my memories. They are etched in my mind,and i guess they will stay.

I am very disappointed with you. All this while,i've treated you as my friend,a very close friend. I didn't expect you would think so lowly of me. I didn't expect that all this while,you expected something in return. I wish you could have accepted and respected my decision,but you proved me wrong. I've always thought you were a good person,but you showed me your true colours and i'm glad indeed that i never had any feelings for you. I know you were wrong about me,and i believe that those people who mean a lot to me wouldn't think the same way of me.

Although you have apologised and i have "forgiven" you,i guess i've not truly forgiven you. And,obviously,i am not able to forget the insults you threw at me. I'm just glad that the chapter with you is over. I do feel guilty and sorry for whatever that has happened,but after you treated me that way,i think maybe i shouldn't feel guilty or sorry at all. I would be doing myself injustice for putting the blame on myself. I wish we could have remained as friends,but i guess that is impossible. Your birthday's coming up and i feel like wishing you happy birthday,but i don't want to have a conversation with you so,i guess i'll just refrain from doing so.

Okayy,chapter's closed. For the better. I hope.

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