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♥ Tuesday, June 29, 2010

It's been quite long since i last blogged. Hmm...that's just because i'm starting to lose the mood for blogging again. And there's just some things that i'd rather keep it personal.

I know the person that's concerned is not going to read this. But well,right now,i just have to let it all out. I feel like bursting into tears. At times,you make me damn happy just with those little words,which to others might not mean anything. And at times like this,you just totally break my heart.

Perhaps you don't take me seriously. Perhaps i never meant anything. And that's the painful truth that i have to accept...though it hurts. Hearing all your stories about her,don't you know how much it hurts me deep inside? No,i don't think you do. If you did,you would never have asked me if i am ok...neither would you have asked me what happened. Because you would know the answer. It's because of you.

And all i do,is to cheer you up everytime you're down or when you're facing any problems. I try to be there for you always...and i believe i have. Don't you appreciate that? I am always there to hear your stories,give you the support you need...and even joke with you about her.

When you've hurt me,why am i still there for you? When there's already no hope,why am i still staying by your side? Am i just being a loyal friend who will remain there for you? Or am i still hoping? I hope not. Maybe i should get it over and done with soon...so that it doesn't hurt anymore.

& why does the one we care for don't give a damn about us? Whereas, there'll always be that other one who cares so much more for us,who treats us right,but it can never work out...because you know that that's not the one.

When i feel sad and irritated,you're not there most of the time...but he is. When there's something i wanna share badly,the first person i usually think of(apart from my besties) is you...but you're not there.

If this isn't love,then why do i feel like crying or shouting out to my bestie when you talk about her? If this isn't love,then why does it feel like you're stabbing me right in the heart when all you think of and talk about is her? Aren't all these symptoms of jealousy?

If she makes your day, if you enjoy her presence, if being by her side makes you happy,then i guess i should be happy for you. :'(

Peace out @ 1:12 AM

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