The whole thing seems like a reflection of MY life. Not totally, but bits and pieces of it. It hurts to keep on believing. After all, it's all just fiction. But why oh why ?! Why does this heart stick to it and keep on believing that in the end, things would turn out to be the same as just how it is in the book. That's stupid, but i can't convince myself enough.

Yesterday was fun and everything...but you could say only part of me was there. It's like i was there but my mind wasn't. I was loosing the mood right when i know where we were heading for. That's just because i know that i'm still stuck there and i'm not over it. Not to the point where i can live my life without any painful memories haunting me. Not to the point where i can smile SINCERELY while i try to hold back my tears and my emotions. But lucky for me, i guess i managed to conceal it pretty well yesterday. Obviously i wasn't going to ruin Dayah's day.

But i can't help wishing and hoping that i could go back to those days. Forgiving might be easy, but forgetting turns out to be the exact opposite. I hate myself for being so weak. I wish i could say "So what ?" instead of "Why oh why ?". I wish it was "Fine. Whatever." and not "No ! Please don't do that...". But well, i can't.

Zafirah / Zaf/ Firah
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