Okayy. Didn't plan to blog yet...but really have to get this burden and anger off. I admit that i am the biggest fool for not believing what my friends said and for not heeding their advice. So,here's a note to them...i'm truly sorry.

And now...here's a note to you.
Thanks for all the lies.
Thanks for being such a "nice" person.
Thanks so much sehh!

I have to admit that it came as a shock to me. That must have been coz' i trusted you so much...i really did not think that you would do such a thing. But well,you did. It must have been so easy for you kan? Now,i believe that i was not the first one you hurt...and i'm sure there are many others you're gonna hurt. Thanks to your sweet-talking i suppose...i'm sure my sarcasm bites you. But i no longer give a damn you know...i hate you! You're the first to make me cry this badly...but you don't care either i'm sure. I'm sorry for not being good enough for you. But wait...why should i say sorry in the first place? If you're really not a heartless person,then come up with the guts to admit everything to me...but don't expect me to forgive you coz' i've lost my respect for you.

Hmm...i'm just so disappointed. Hope you realise one day that hurting me and many others was the biggest mistake in your life. Never mind...

Hello people! Gosh...we're all still stuck in school. & i bet everyone's so flustered after the Superteen Camp. But,i find that the whole camp was a very successful one and personally,i have learnt so much from the workshop. Still have to admit though that it was a very tiring one...and it took up our weekends. & i had to miss going to my aunty's house for a family gathering. The trainers from Superteen were funny and friendly. & at some points of the workshop,it was quite emotional. Maybe not for all though.

I was really touched by some of the things being said. It made me realise how grateful i should be with everything that i have as there are others out there who are less fortunate than me. It also made me realise on how patient and loving my parents,family and friends have been all this while. Not to forget the teachers too. I've been taking things for granted at some points of time in my life. So yeah...the camp really made me realise a lot of things.

Moving on. I don't know why,but these days i seem to be quite emotional. Tears seem to be part and parcel of my daily life this past 2 weeks or so. I know tears can be one's strength and also weakness. Perhaps it's my weakness. Or perhaps just that i'm really disturbed with those little things happening around me. I just can't seem to express what i want to say. I've always been blaming the time for putting me in that kind of situation. Was i wrong all this while? Am i the one that's been the problem of all this?

I really don't know...i'm so stressed up and confused. I don't know how to react...when i try to be my normal self and forget all that's happened,be as close as i once was with my friends,it just doesn't work out. I really tried. But at times i feel as if i'm the one left out. But i know that's how some others feel too. I hope that there's a resolution to this problem or misunderstanding...i know i've said this for a few times. but don't doubt it...coz' i really mean it. I treasure my friendship and i don't wanna lose any of my friends. They're really special. Each and every one of them.

Hey peeps! Okayys...i know...i know...my blog is dead. Can't help it...just getting too lazy to even switch on my laptop and sign in to blogger. But neither am i sick of blogging...nor is my daily life boring. Hmm...well,i guess i've not been blogging for almost 1 month yeah..? So, below are just some pictures to update you people.

Aww...isn't he sooo chubby?

Hmm...Nasriah, i seem to agree with you on your post about those people with laserific mouths. Or is it tongues? Anyways, i think those who wanna say something about others should reflect on themselves first before just shooting out whatever they want to. Without realising, they might just have the same attitude or character and perhaps even worse, as they even talked about others behind their backs. These people perhaps are fit to be called hypocrites.

hmm...right now,i just hope time can come to a stop. i wish that all the good days n' sweet memories could be relished n' repeated...i miss everything! but well, i guess all that has to wait till end of year...after our Os more specifically. i wish we were back in sec 1 or 2 or 3...but well, that would mean that our secondary school life will not come to an end soon. i'm so tired of schoool. i know i'm not the only one feeling this way...it's so tiring to be a sec 4 student huh?

Finally! I'm able to use the internet again after a super-duper long time. Internet hasn't been working properly. My blog's like totally dead right now...i know. Anyways, i do have lots of things that have been bothering me lately. I would really wanna let it all out, but i don't think this is gonna be the appropriate place. Hmm...all i can say is that i've been feeling a rush of emotions lately. Happy. Excited. Anxious. Irritated. Pissed off. A lil' upset. But i can't seem to find the right person to share all my burdens with.

Anyways, i've been trying my best to tone down a little lately...as in cutting down on my hyper-ness and insanity. Wanting to focus on my studies is one of the reasons. But there's another... some people said something which kinda hurt me. But well, i don't think they even realised...coz' i managed to laugh it off. So, i'm trying to tone down a little with the hope that i can keep all of this out of my mind. I remember a friend once said to a friend of mine that we should not allow what others say affect us till it hurts us. Well, i can't really recall the exact piece of advice...but it's along those lines. I hope i can stick to that advice.

And another thing...have i not been understanding enough all this while? I've been trying my best to do so...but all i can say is i'm sorry if some people think otherwise. I guess you have to try to be understanding too on your part...i'm not asking for much, just a little if you do care to know.

And urggggggh! My arms, thighs and hemstrings are all still so sore from PE on Wednesday. Had a hard time sitting, standing and lying down. Even walking. It even made me walk so weirdly around school on Thursday.

Lastly, wishing Nasriah a speedy recovery from her headache! Hope to see you in school next week yaw! (:

Labels: bundles of emotions...

Finally,the English oral is over! Hmm...not much to rejoice about though,coz' it did not turn out so well for many of us. Well,more specifically...most of me and my friends were disappointed with it. No idea where the problem lies in though. It's over now...so i guess it's of no use to complain or whine.

And guess what? Common tests were just over about a week ago or so...and now,it's time for CA2s. Hmph! That's so fast huh? Barely enough time to prepare. 1st up is HML CA2...it's tomorrow! I hope i don't fail...so to avoid failing,right now i'm studying hard for my peribahasa. Effing shit though. Coz' i left my peribahasa list in my HML file below my table in class. So,i'm learning my peribahasa from tintaprss right now.

Anyways,as i was reading my malay novel a few days ago...i chanced upon 2 sentences that i felt had a very deep meaning to it(especially the 1st one). Though it might sound kinda mushy or whatsoever.

"Aku mahu menjadi aku di mana engkau mencintai aku seperti aku mencintai engkau..."
>> "I wanna be me whereby you love me the way i love you..."

"Betapa pun payah untukku gapai,kau takkan pernah kulepaskan..."
>> "Though it is hard for me to get you,i won't let you go..."